I have to admit
sharing this journey has been overwhelming.
I have had total support and love. I have had shock and
surprise. I have had a few people accuse
me of sensationalizing my story and enjoying it too much. The last one is the most hurtful and frankly
to me it's the most surprising. I have
hoped that by sharing what I'm going through people who need help will see that
there are resources available and that even the people among us who seem the
happiest may need help now and again.
To the haters or
anyone who thinks that I'm sensationalizing my life. Awesome, please keep thinking that. That sentiment says more about you than about
me. Perhaps there is something in your
life that needs examining. I will stop
thinking about it, I will stop feeling bad because it's not about me anymore. Criticism is never easy to take which I why
I haven't really shared much of my creative writing, I've been a poet since I
was 16 and am considering submitting something for publishing but the thought
of criticism is terrifying. But that's a
story I tell myself, that someone will criticize me.
In life there are
choices we make that determine our futures and tell us how best to remove
ourselves from our past. In storytelling
there is a psychological connection we make.
According to Psychology Today stories are about collaboration and
connection and engage us through passion, sadness, joy and hardship. Stories are how we think, it's how we make
meaning and how we make decisions. So in
my story telling I'm processing the mental hurdles of dealing with depression
and how to still function in life. I'm
trying to connect all the dots that make me who I am. I'm trying to figure out what stories are
true and what stories are invented.
How do you talk to
yourself? What stories do you tell that are fiction? What movies run in your
head when you are scared? How do you justify your existence in your head? What
do you do to make sense of your days?
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