When I started the
blog, it was all about how much I dislike working out and the journey of
investing into my 80's but it's morphed into more holistic views of
fitness. I asked a few weeks ago on my
Facebook if I should change the name to something else and someone pointed out
that fitness is more than just physical. Fitness is mental, it's emotional,
it's spiritual, it's financial and that's the direction I want to turn, fit in
all things. And the dating part, that's
because I want to try lots of different things before I commit to any one
thing. I want to see what works for me in working out or in figuring out my
future. I want to explore different options for who I want to be.
That’s the
interesting thing about all of this, who we think we are at 18 and 25 is very
different than who we are at 30 and 35.
Where I am now, it's all about saying yes and trying new things. That's what dating is, trying and finding out
what you like, who you like. That's what
I'm doing now, the cliché of the newly single, I'm dating myself. Even typing that simultaneously makes me
cringe and laugh.
I spent the past
four days in Las Vegas with some of the most wonderful people on the planet, I
love being so quickly welcomed and included into a family. Originally B and I
were going to fly out early on Wednesday and spend the day together, he wanted
to show me his Vegas (lived there for a decade or so) but then we broke up and
I had a whole day to myself before everyone got in. I texted with a friend, was staggered at how
sad I was to be there without him. But
even saying that out loud helped, it wasn't a secret, it was out of my
head.
So I had a day to
myself in a city that is overwhelming, I had options. I looked at skydiving but at $300 it was a
bit too pricy for what I wanted to spend.
I considered zip line on Fremont street but that seemed too touristy and
really would rather have had someone with me. Ultimately I spent the day at the
pool reading and enjoying cocktails and texting, getting the sad out of my
system (thank you J).
I spent three days
not making a decision, I was able to follow the purple sweater and just say yes
to everything. I tried gambling-real gambling not just the slots. I played
roulette, craps and blackjack. I watched people who truly know how to play
cards. We wandered around the hotel and up and down the strip. It's hard not to
be overwhelmed by the people and the noise.
And I have reinforced that my own tolerance for Vegas is 4 days, just
like Manhattan, eventually there are too many people and so much noise. But I'd
go back again, it is like being on another planet.
So what does this
have to do with dating myself? I have no idea but then again we all have those
dates that we have no idea about until much later. This week I'll continue on my dating
adventures in the fourth week of my painting class which I love.
I think that this
idea of dating fitness is something each of us can do, we can know ourselves a
bit better, we can strive for more in this life.
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